It’s been a while since my last blog…probably October and so much has happened in my life and in the world.
I have been going through a transition that has been coming for a bit over a year. I have been having fun, working hard, and giving self-care a serious stab. In my procrastination, I was hoping the situation would correct itself but it was really me putting off making a difficult decision. A huge weight was lifted off of me when I spoke my mind and I broke a chain that had been weighing me down. Within the next few months, my life will change and I’m looking forward to it. It’s really time for me to look out for self as I am ALWAYS caring for others but it’s my time. I have really learned to say no and to speak to existence what I want. I am no longer holding back and if it bothers you then….you’ll get over it.
I realized that love waits for no one so I have decided to act upon that. I want to be able to show my daughters to follow your heart and dreams. A closed mouth will definitely not be fed. I have begun to move forward with some of my ideas while continuing to write the breathings of my heart and mind.
Since my first rejection letter, I have received another. It didn’t sting as much as the first. I must keep writing.
Time really does repeat itself. We are currently living in the 60s
calls for justice
The amount of black killings is ridiculous and the amount of No True Bills from those killings is truly a pot full of sh*t. I am so tired of police/govt getting away with murder. My heart is heavy.
Social media has shown me people’s true feelings are about race matters and how white privilege blinds many (not that I didn’t already know that). The lack of compassion from our own and straight up racist remarks from other ethnic backgrounds is astonishing. Now people are entitled to their opinions, however your opinion will not silence me (us). If anything, we will fight harder, scream louder, and continue until all wrongs are righted and we have justice.
I am so proud of the youth for standing up for what they believe is right. It makes my heart smile. My 6-year-old has even talked to me about the injustice in the world and has shown her disapproval. Her take on the world at her age is amazing.
As I retire for the night, I would like to leave you with a quote and song that resonated with me……
“All you are ever told in this country about being black is that it is a terrible, terrible thing to be. Now, in order to survive this, you have to really dig down into yourself and recreate yourself, really, according to no image which yet exists in America. You have to impose, in face — this may sound very strange — you have to decide who you are, and force the world to deal with you, not with its idea of you.” ~James Baldwin
My Petition ~ Jill Scott http://youtu.be/n8uA3DMFPfk