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Archive for the month “July, 2013”

Exhaustion

I am tired. Tired of dealing with the same. The same struggles day in and day out. Outside of experiencing professional issues there are personal issue that I have been battling. This battle is getting old and I want it all to just go away. Away and never come back, ya know. I know that struggle makes you stronger and it’s all a part of life but can a sista catch a break? A break from all of this nonsense. The nonsense that is clouding my brain and tormenting my feelings. These feelings of uncertainty, fear, pain, love, heartbreak, loneliness, moodiness (happiness, sadness, anger), excitement….all at the same dame time. It time to be on the upswing of life. Life is too short to stuck in this place. This place of confusion.

I NEED AN OUT…..HEEEEELLLLLLLPPPPPP!

Peace!

ddb

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Kills me!

Some of today’s thoughts…..

I never will understand why people can’t take questions. Isn’t that how you learn? You ask questions.

Why are people so contradictive? If you don’t want something to happen to you then I feel it would be wise for you not to do it to others. What you put out in the universe is what is reciprocated.

We learn by doing but by the time you are a certain age you should put childish things aside.

I never will understand why people feel the need to continually lie. What is so bad about telling the truth. I know, I know….everyone lies. However, I feel that adults should act like adults and be honest in all aspects of life. Maybe I am too honest at times….who know.

Why is it easier people to judge others wen in actuality they probably should take a look in the mirror and begin there?

It kills me….people kill me

ddb

The help of Cave Canem

I am going into the 9th week of the Cave Canem Pittsburgh workshop and it has done so much for my writing and my fear. My fear has kept me from sharing my work with the world. At one time it was just me and my thoughts and although I wanted to share my work, I was afraid……afraid of rejection, afraid of my work being judged, afraid of being exposed. I had to come to a point where I realized that this is a gift from the Creator and if it wasn’t to be shared it would not have been given. I am not writing more, sharing more, and I am even getting ready to share my poetry with the known and unknown. Now, this is not saying that I am not nervous because it is scaring the bejesus out of me…LOL. Before I get up in class to read, my palms are sweating, my heart is racing like I just ran the 100m, my mouth gets dry, and my stomach rolls and rolls like I have the BGs. BUT I need to do this for ME. If I do not I will be stuck in this place of longing, timidness, and fear and we can’t have that, can we? So, I am pressing and enjoying my gift and all of the emotions that come with it.

Until next time…..

ddb

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.
-Marianne Williamson

(Thank you KSK!)

Old thoughts!

It’s so funny when others get an attitude with you because you are not living your life the way they want you to live it. If you have an issue with how I live, the things I do, and the way I raise my child then that is too damn bad. People kill me with their way is the correct way and you should be doing this, you should be doing that….I have an idea. It’s a brilliant idea!!! How about you worry about living your life and stop trying to live mine.

 

I am so tired of being judged by those close to me. It’s sickening. Just because we don’t agree about the same thing or see eye to eye doesn’t mean we can’t have the same level of communication. You being cold to me and not speaking to me doesn’t make me lose sleep at night. You holding a grudge does not hurt me. I will continue to live my life and communicate with the Creator the way I have been.

ddb

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